I Would Like a More Exciting Disease

I'm bored with my cancer. I want an exciting disease -- or even an exciting cancer. Maybe an interesting new symptom, or unexpected test result; or maybe a new test that would tell me something new. 

I want novelty. I want doctors hovering around my hospital bed trying to figure out what I have. I want to hear my case described with words like and phrases like "mystifying" and "never seen before." I want to be a plotline on House.

I'm tired of being part of the cancer machine. I'm tired of my treatment being routine. I'm tired of feeling like everything is just running through a standard script. 

Mostly, I want a disease that doctors are trying to cure, not manage.

I'm tired of having to be managed.